life just keeps going except for the little matter of death

There are so many things I want to put down on the blog but it seems that life has just flown by. I remember when Bob Dylan wrote ‘Hard Rains a Gonna Fall’ he said he’d written this one song with so many things in it because he really wanted to write a separate song about every line in it but thought he’d never get it done. he just put it all in the one song. I feel a bit the same. Since i was talking about the hut and tractor I’ve had the road trip visit which involved family/friends ging, walking, riding, campfiring, and maybe best of all just hanging. That was one special week. It was followed by the Kaldors, Trish Watts, Rod Pattenden, my brother Brian and his wife Sandra. We’ve planted trees, we’ve fixed lights, we’ve fixed gates, we’ve fixed pipes and of course we’ve brought the aviary (all 16 metres by 18 metres of it) back to life for our planned four chooks. I’ve applied for funding grants from NT Govt at work and had one approved. We’ve spent a lovely week in Sydney with Hannah and friends and family. Stella has said goodbye to her old friend Karen and I’ve said goodbye to my Auntie.

Life and death has been an underlying theme for some months now. I feel quite unsettled. I have loved every minute of the month yet have hardly had tim eto savour one thing and the next thing is upon me. And yet there have been these experiences of death and end. With David, Karen and Auntie they would probably rate as three pretty special deaths I guess, each for differnet reasons. Maybe a thing they had in common is that all three people had slowed enough to smell the flowers. Actually i think my Auntie had slowed even more than that but none of the three were rushing around living.

We often talk about needing to slow down and thats not what I feel. I actually quite like rushing around and doing things. But I also am hit by that tension of the being. Thats possibly why a week with Hannah is a pretty good thing to do. She lets you rush at one level but also models and encourages you constantly to be.

So no insights just feelings that it has been an amazing month which i wouldnt swap but its also nice to catch air.

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